This will make no sense.

So, I bet these first few posts are always weird. Feel like I'm writing for someone else and not for me, So I'm just gonna try to throw that feeling off the table..

Well, I really don't know a lot of what I'm feeling right now.
Very conflicted is a good way to describe it. I said it before but I still don't understand why every person is so bad to each other so often, It doesn't make sense to simply hurt people.. especially knowingly. Or lie. Or use people. I guess I could say I feel bad for the people who do that type of stuff.. It's a really pathetic way to exist. Being a coward is not a legitimate career. I guess I've just been noticing all the bad in the world more recently. That's why I love my group of friends, they are seriously the best people, and it feels so good to have someone call and just ask how my day was, or sit and talk about something besides what we see on the surface level. That's love.

I guess more recently I've really been feeling like I kind of just want to go explore, and take full advantage of everything I can - as far as what's been provided for me as far as nature and laughter and experiences. There is so much to do! And a lot of people forget about that, and get caught up with things that don't matter.

One thing to remember is that you can always be better than what you think you can be. When you've reached your limit the only thing left to do is break through and become better. Unfortunately, a lot of the things we go through to get to that point really change us as people- and a lot of the times, it's things that literally break our hearts to witness or be a part of.


A lot of people ask me why I do certain things that I do, nothing bad- but I might not need to do them. I guess I can answer that by just saying that I don't want to regret not doing whatever it was that I did. I want to always do what God calls me to do, what makes me happy, what inspires me, what strengthens me, makes me happy to be alive and makes me feel like I'm fully living my life with the people that I care about. That's my goal in life.


Have a good day to whoever had the patience to read through all of this. :)